On this day, I chose to comeback to what I know. Writing, my passion for who knows what tomorrow brings.
Thank You God for the humility I’ve been fortunate to obtain from my experiences in this life. At the young old age of 31 I’ve seen so much and withstood my burdens with grace and reserve. People seriously don’t get God! I’m Great and if I never receive another blessing after this day I’m more than in over abundance of joy to withstand what storms my spirit may weather for the duration of my life.
I’ve mourned, I’ve Cried, I’ve driven down the same road a million times and prayed for guidance. I didn’t know what to do, how to function. I couldn’t eat, I was having nightmares, literally awaking bundled like a baby, demanding Gods reason for sparing me.
The scariest part, Imagine not being able to recollect a particular space of time in which you know your body is supposed to function at normal or maximum capacity. Let’s be clear your awake fully operational and in mid swing of participating in an activity.
My experiences- I was working out at the gym with a personal trainer and after a particular set I was walking and the next thing I know I’m waking in an ambulance screaming at the top of my lungs as my right shoulder is completely dislocated and secured in the stretcher parallel to my body.
Or Cooking over a stove one moment and awaking to a big burly black man and scared children inquiring as to if I’m okay. I miss working with children although young they provide levity in a world plagued with depression and unfortunate sadness.
But on to the movement. I’ve lived and living is all I’ve left to do. There has been no better feeling than sheltering a new generation of young adults into maturity. In my time of humility I have repaired broken relationships with family and terminated some on a deeper level, at the end of the day the lesson learned was to not fault humanity for doing what it does best, evolve and surreptitiously survive. Wishing those close to your heart a somber farewell is hard enough to swallow, when its a parent it’s quite disheartening. It’s the removal of a foundational pillar, one that can’t be replaced. What choice do we have as individuals but to survive, after all we can’t simply stop breathing and cease life because we’re in a bad spot. We must bear the fury of misconception and tempered words. The funny thing is if you cut to the chase and remove the middle men the solution could create more solidarity toward a joint foundational relationship.
Fact is tomorrow comes without regard to our positions in life, and by some great measure I’ve been blessed to live tomorrow today everyday since. I’ve volunteered in the most unexpected of places, seen different cultures and ethnicities cross language barriers, I’ve stood strong with two mothers who made the hardest decisions of their lives while another allowed me to witness the birth of a child. But it doesn’t end there, my friends and I actually believe in loyalty. We make it happen and we promote growth in each other, there’s nothing better than knowing someone else has a piece of bread to spare when all you’ve to offer is peanut butter and 76 cents toward the jelly. Sometimes we just need to stop and say thanks. So on this day I will.
Sometimes you just want everything to be positive, I’ve never been about negativity so I refuse to allow anything but positive thoughts to cloud my mind, I refuse to claim the unknown before it happens and even then I will seek justice for the majority, never the minority. When all else fails I promise to shout the wrongs of systems plagued with pens as opposed to people and even then correction will be implored, we are a world build on interaction. I promise to promote growth in every individual I meet regardless of situations that harbor malice. If a stranger needs one I will strive to give them two if not three. I can’t remove the emotion of my person, I’ve always held those with hope to higher standards and thusly shall continue to my grave. There is power in a name, I will foster hope and justice in that of my own. I will give credence to what is right, not what’s convenient. Policy will be uplifted and immersed in cultural awareness, strengths will be permitted and weakness subsided to solutions.
Having served in two wars I can positively say life after the military has been trying. There is finality in knowing your purpose on this earth, giving is what I do best and I see no reason to change my plans for Law school…I now have the greatest reason in the world. No one should be without a choice, knowing is half the battle and knowledge is free. I’ve got a great support system in place with people who truly care. Hey what can I say aside from I’m Downright Blessed and forever changed!
If one person understands and can navigate the pitfalls of life based upon hearing my experiences my duty to humanity is fulfilled.
We Are Not Our Past, Therefore the present can’t be compared to what no longer exists. Change Your Perspective to Change your Circumstances!
Happy Resurrection!
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